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I have been talking to baby R alot and trying to encourage him to come out but so far nothing haha
Actually I want him to come out tomorrow hehe
but i know it's up to him...
I won't know much about how dialated I am until Saturday upon my next doc visit...
I am trying to plan my timetable for after he comes out cos I am still studying with my bible college [starting 10th March again] and I need a good excercise routine as well as caring for him...
not sure how it is going to work out... I cant really put anything on paper until I know what he is going to be like haha
Wow... my whole life is about to change... for the better :)
So, Joses' daddy - my father in law is a bit of an awesome author... his books have always inspired me and taught me new things.
He just finished publishing his first Devotional! "One Day at a Time"
I was so happy because I have been looking for a good down to earth devotional and I just couldn't find anything that suited me [I am fussy in this area] - Ps Steven gave me a copy as a gift....
Well I tell you, I am only into day 2 but I have never been so inspired so fast!!!
[For those of you that are interested they are $20 a copy and I can hook you up with one haha just let me know!]
Anyways the past 2 days have been emphasizing on leadership and relationships with other people!
What the Bible says is required of a leader...
My thinking has been renewed once again, my eyes have been reopened to what I am actually about and what God has called me to do!
I am a pretty transparent person - I don't have secrets that I hold back from people, my life is a pretty open book.
and I realize how important it is for a leader to be a transparent person. [of course they shouldnt be plain dumb and go telling their life story to people]
One thing that really struck me in the Bible though is that God requires us not just to live a blameless life, full of integrity and all the rest of it - but that a good deacon/elder/leader in the church needs to be examining the Scriptures as a lifestyle!
[I know like 'der' I thought you knew that Nadia - I mean I did... the point I am tryin to make is that the bible s stating it in the same verses that they are stating a leader must be full of integrity and all that - which shows the importance of getting into the Word!]
That means we should be reading the Word on a daily basis - we should be getting deeper in our relationship with God, we should be reading books and expanding our knowledge about Him and HIs works.
The second thing I had my eyes re-opened to is that all the lives I lead under me, all the girls that are looking up to me and I am mentoring - God has officially placed them there - because He trusts me to take care of them - of course they are responsible for themselves and their mistakes and choices are out of my hands, The point is God has placed them there and He expects to trust me with them - He expects me to be carefully watching over each of them and guiding them where I can. I cannot lift my eyes from them because the devil is on the prowl and any chance he is given he will devour them.
As a leader our responsibilty is HUGE and shouldn't be taken lightly.
I have to admit - I do feel super guilty that I havent been able to meet with the girls as often as I would like to be - that I am not able to go for lunches and dinners - that I dont have the energy to go to everything that they all invite me to... but hey I have a good reason haha I am about to become a mum and the preperation stage is tough work.
But I do know that once me and baby R are ready I plan to get out there and meet you girls as often as possible!
I hope you all know my house is always open for you all too! :)
If you wanna come over just let me know first! haha since I cant always come to you all!!!
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I recently went through the 'nesting period' apparently it is some phenomenon that women that are about to give birth go through - they start cleaning like there is no tomorrow hahaha.... On Monday I dunno what happened...
I filled a bucket with hot water and soap, got a scrubbing brush, got on my hands and knees and scrubbed the floors in my house [picture Cinderella and you are there]
At first I wondered why I was goin so crazy and literally scrubbing my floors hahaha then as I was reading this morning about my stage of pregnancy I found out that this is apparently the 'nesting period' hahaha
My floors were very clean and sparkly - too clean - they felt kinda soapy still after they had dried and I had a leaders meeting at my house the same night hahaha
But now they are ok :)
Anyways that's pretty much it for now... I havent really been into blogging much so actually I have a lot more to say ahahaha but then that would just bore everyone else hahahaha
OK take care now!!!
Love you, Bye Bye!
- Mood:
impressed
Today I am officially 37 weeks pregnant which means the baby is done cooking inside and now is just playing a waiting game with me hahaha
For those of you that enjoy the read of what I am going through:
Your Pregnancy: Week 37
Your baby is officially baked this week! That means you could literally give birth at any given moment. A terrifying, exciting and overwhelming concept, all rolled into one. Your partner is undoubtedly having the same emotional roller-coaster ride, so be sure to share your feelings and enjoy these last weeks (days?! hours?!) together.
Wondering what's up with your body, your baby and your life this week? Read on ...
What You're Thinking:
"I can't eat, I can't sleep, but I can do a great imitation of a beached whale. Seriously, are we almost done with this?"
Your Body
You made it! Your baby is considered full term at the end of this week. So kick your swollen feet up and swig back a glass of lemonade. All that hard work has finally paid off!
At your checkup this week, your doctor or midwife may do an internal exam to see how things are progressing. We're not gonna lie to you, an "internal" can hurt like hooey. But hey, it ain't labor! While she's in there, your practitioner will check three things: dilation (how open your cervix is), ripeness (how soft your cervix is) and effacement (how thin your cervix is). For baby to come on out, the cervix must be open to 10 centimeters, as soft as the skin on the inside of your mouth and 100 percent effaced.
It's normal to have some brownish spotting after an internal exam or a little wham-bam, but if you notice any bright red discharge or consistent spotting, call your doc or midwife immediately. Also, as your mucus plug preps to dislodge itself, you may also find an increase in gooey discharge "down there" these last few weeks. Just what you wanted to hear, right?
Your Baby
Huge news this week: You're carrying a full-term baby! If you were to go into labor today, all systems would be a go. Woohoo! Even though you can't wait for the little bambino to quite literally rear his head, keep in mind that your bun benefits from every day in the oven. Other ticker-tape-worthy developments:
Baby's growth slows down dramatically this week, which is great news for your birth canal. His bones are still soft and pliable and will solidify after he's born. More great news for your birth canal.
So if he's all cooked and ready to go, what the heck is he still doing in there?! He's busy practicing for "life on the outside," working on his breathing, sucking, sleeping, gazing and peeing abilities. The only thing he can't practice yet is his ability to scream at the top of his lungs when he's hungry—but he'll do plenty of that in a few weeks.
At this point babies vary in size, but the average length is between 19 and 20 inches and most babies weigh approximately 6 pounds. About the size of an average largemouth bass caught in Minnesota by your cousin Earl.
Your Life
If you can't stop Windexing everything in sight or you have a sudden desire to rearrange your linen closet again, then you're officially nesting. Nesting is the phenomena where exhausted and very pregnant women suddenly find the energy and the drive to clean like their life depends on it.
Though many women think "nesting" is a wives' tale, it's actually not the stuff of urban legend, and many women get the powerful urge to ready their home for the impending arrival in the final weeks of pregnancy. (Kind of makes you wish nature had the forethought to send that urge to your partner every now and then, doesn't it?)
Now's a good time to make sure your nursery is clean and ready for baby to spit and poop all over it. Spend some of that extra nesting energy stocking up on baby needs like diapers and wipes. You really don't need to be polishing the silver right now.
Even if you're feeling super-energetic, make sure to get enough rest. You'll need your strength for labor and beyond.
Well I am almost there, now it is basically just waiting time!!!
And the wait seems so looooonggggggggggggggggggg!!!
I look back and think wow that was he fastest 9 months of my life but at the same time I am looking at the weeks that are around me and thinking wow this is the slowest 8 weeks I have ever lived - time was flying and now it's creeping by so slowly :(
Well for those of you that like their weekly pregnancy lesson - here it is for you :)....
Your Pregnancy: Week 36
With a mere 28 days to go (give or take a few), you're almost at the end—and the beginning of your new life. Finish up your final prep by stocking up on diapers, washing the onesies and making sure the nursery is good to go. Then, even if baby comes early, you're still ready. Of course, every new parent feels wildly unprepared regardless of how operational the nursery is, but at least you won't be diaperless!
Wondering what's up with your body, your baby and your life this week? Read on ...
What You're Thinking
"One hundred bottles of milk on the wall, one hundred bottles of milk. Take one down, pass it around, 99 bottles of milk on the wall ..."
Your Body
Just when you think you can't possibly stand another day of your baby kicking your lungs and crowding your stomach, your baby will drop it like it's hot. This process, called lightening, will probably make it easier for you to breathe, but with your baby's head resting directly on your bladder, you'll be breathing all the way to the bathroom.
When your baby drops, you can rest assured that your pregnancy journey will be over within the next few weeks. Make sure to know the many signs and symptoms of labor so that you won't be caught with your pants down (both figuratively and literally).
Your Baby
Your baby continues to put on weight at about ½ pound each week. This layer of fat will help your baby regulate his body temperature after leaving your climate-controlled womb. In fact, your baby will be 15 percent fat at birth (and you ... well that's another story). Even in the womb, your baby can listen, feel, touch and see. The only thing separating him from living in the outside world is a little thing called the birth canal. Other highlights this week:
His gums are firm with ridges that look somewhat like teeth, though his actual pearly whites won't start breaking through until he's between three months and a year old.
Your baby has definite patterns of sleep and wakefulness—opening his eyes while awake and closing them while sleeping. Your baby will become alert and turn his head toward light and sound just as a newborn would—except when you put on that Celine Dion CD. Then the baby puts his hands up, turns away and gurgles, "Oh no you didn't!"
Your baby is now around 18½ inches long and nearly 6 pounds—just about as big as a breadbox!
Your Life
You may feel silly driving around these last couple of weeks with a baby car seat and no baby, but in case she decides to show up early, you'll be glad you have it, since your hospital won't let you leave without one.
Learn about standards for child safety seats and read up on the safety rankings and "ease-of-use ratings" of the model you are interested in.
Most people install their car seats incorrectly, so make an appointment with your local Highway Patrol or child-safety passenger inspection station to check to make sure it's been properly done. And remember, rules and uses of car seats change as your child grows, so this won't be the last car seat you install.
Now that you're seriously down to the wire (and we mean seriously), you're probably in nesting overdrive. Quit scrubbing the bathroom tile with a toothbrush for a minute and take a bath or go for a swim. We realize that getting naked or into a bathing suit is about the least appealing thing you can think of doing, but at this stage you probably don't give a rat's behind what you look like. You'll feel a gazillion pounds lighter in the pool and a nice bath will soothe your sore back, feet, neck, hips. ...
- Mood: okay
The Time is nearing....
I am now officially 35 weeks pregnant... 2 weeks away from the whole 'anytime now'
Last night Joses and I celebrated Valentines Day... it was so beautiful! We ate at a gorgeous German resturant nearby City Hall and then went for dessert elsewhere :)
The food was delicious and if it weren't so ex I would go there everyday hahaha - This German girl loves her German good hahaha
OK anyways...
Your Pregnancy: Week 35
Now that D-day (that's delivery day) is sneaking up on you, you may start to get nervous about what a literal pain in the you-know-what it'll be. But instead of focusing on the "ouch!" of it all, focus on the "oooh!" of it: meeting your baby for the very first time.
Wondering what's up with your body, your baby and your life this week? Read on ...
What You're Thinking "Should I bring my cute bathrobe to the hospital with the matching furry slippers or is that just crazy talk?"
Your Body
As Patrick Swayze put it, "Nobody puts baby in a corner!" Doubly true for your little tenant. Your baby has pretty much taken over your entire torso by now. Over the past few months, he's squished and mushed all of your organs out of the way. Any day now, he'll make a final move and shove your heart up and to the left to make more room for himself. (See, he's got your heart in his hands already.)
Before all this pregnancy stuff, your uterus was a small ball the size of your fist and was tucked neatly away behind your pelvis. Today your uterus is the size of a small watermelon and reaches all the way up to your ribs.
At this point in your pregnancy all the blood has gone to your belly ... literally. Nearly 1/6 of your body's total blood volume is chugging around in the vessels in your uterus. So that's why you feel so lightheaded all the time!
Starting this week you'll visit your OB or midwife weekly. Every time you go you'll probably beg her to tell you when she thinks your babe is coming. Unfortunately, her guess is about as good as yours. Even if you're dilated, there's no telling exactly when baby will make his appearance (unless you have a scheduled C-section, of course.)
Your Baby
This week the final touches are being added to your mini-masterpiece and most of his development is going to packing on the pounds. While baby's movements may be becoming less jerky, he may do his final somersault in the womb soon—to put himself into the head-down position for birth. Other fascinating facts:
Your little Karate Kid can't quite pack the punch he used to due to the limited space inside the womb these days. You're likely to feel more wiggles, stretches and rolls than kicks and jabs. The extra layer of fat your baby is adding will create those cute dimples on your baby's elbows and knees. His liver has begun processing his waste products, so you know which organ to thank when he has his first blowout up the back of his onesie.
Baby's nails are growing so long they may curl over the tips of his tiny fingers and toes before he sees a pair of clippers. He'll be in serious need of a mani-pedi once he's born (as will you).
Your baby is now about 5½ pounds and over 18 inches long—about the size of one of those price-club sheet cakes.
Your Life
If you're not just a little bit scared of the pain that occurs during labor and delivery, then you're either very brave or totally in denial. For those who are scared, it's completely normal, but keep in mind that you are not the first woman to give birth. It may not seem like it, but women have actually been delivering babies for centuries (many without pain medication—who knew?!). The best way to get a grip on the fear of the unknown is to educate yourself about the labor process and to research your options.
Spending some time talking to other women who have been there could ease your fears. Give most women a couple of weeks with their little babies, and none of them will even recall the pain.
Study up on when to head to the hospital or birthing center. If you get there too early, the hospital could send you home, and that would be a serious bummer.
Plan your route to the hospital. We know you already know how to get there, but come up with an alternative in case of traffic jams or construction. The last thing you want to be worrying about then is whether or not your exit is closed.
Hey Guys and Girls,
Well I was bathing this morning.... was up much earlier than I usually am...
These days I need to sleep til at least 10am but people kept calling me so ya I was up at like 8 something.
Anyways was bathing this morning and started chatting to God... as I was chatting to Him, He showed me something I feel I should share.
I often share with God my complaints as a leader
Telling him 'why' does this person and that person only come to me when they have a problem - when they need help... how about just a nice hello without anything else attached. [not a personal thing pls dun b insecure and think i am talking about you in particular]
But this morning as I was talking to God I realised that for the past few months I have been doing the exact same thing to God!
I realised that God had allowed me to experience this feeling of irritation because it's how He too can feel.
I have been going to God asking Him for help, for wisdom, for advise, for Him to intervene in situations, for the needs of other people, for Him to do things for me and for the Youth... but I have neglected just teling HIm I love Him and saying a simple good morning to Him.
I was so stunned that without realising it God was teaching me a lesson... a valuable one - one that I shouldn't just ignore - God too wants to be appreciated, wants to just be loved, He loves to help us and wants to be there for us and all the rest of it - but He desires to hear us just say 'I love You'
So try it - I am not saying that we cant go to God with our troubles and ask Him to be with us and help us, but I am saying that we should b telling Him a little more that we love Him and we should be spending a little more time saying thank you that saying pls help!
Hey everyone :D
Well I am so excited! On Thursday I am 35 weeks and I could literally pop at anytime... although I know I likely wont give birth early the thrill of the fact that time is so near is so overwhelming! hahahaha
I am going to love baby R soooooooooooo much... I really am going to try to be the best example I can be to him and i hope that he grows to be as awesome as I believe in my heart he is going to be :)
Today I had such fun!
I cant really travel anymore... I walk like a spider cos not comfy to walk normal anymore hahaha and I feel so unlady like but it's all part of the process hahaha!!!
So cos I cant travel out I met Candice for breakfast at Sengkang and later Jason joined us :)
It was nice to meet up with her she is an awesome girl and I never really got a chance to spend time with her before today :)
Later on I met with the very pretty Chyi wei for mentoring!
Now I am at home cos I cant be at the leaders meeting... waiting for Ps Adrian to call me and tell me to get onto skype to report for life group hahaha :)
ok over and out!
Remember: Greater is He that loves in me than he that is in this world!!!
I am more than happy that so many people are commenting on my livejournal and enjoy its reads so much, but pls do wrote who you are when you comment.
thx ;D
Things in life are looking up - actually they are crazy and dont make any sense and I am slightly stressed that I dont know what is going to happen next - but what I love about it is that when everything looks crazy I know I can't control it and only God can :)
I remember in school I was so jealous of all the pretty girls and wanted so much to look like they did and have the attention that they had haha I never thought I was ugly but I always thought they were so much prettier haha recently some of these girls have been adding me on facebook and it's so sad how their lives ended up :(
Some of them are still unmaried and partying like they are 18year olds, some are really over weight and have poor jobs and some are single and unhappy, some are even on drugs and what not :(
Only a few have found God - and by few I mean like 2.
Some have told me they wish they had listened to me in school and changed their lives cos now they are so screwed up and dont know how to stop what they are doing and how to get out of the lifestyles that they live in.
It's sad the way life is when you dont have God in it. Everyone thinks life is easier and better and more free to be without God - but when you talk to them, like really talk they admit there is a gap in their lives that they dont know how to fill - we know what can fill it for them but they are to blinded by the world to see that God can fill those empty spots :(
There I was in school, jealous of what I wasnt and what they were and here I am saying 'thank God I chose the right path' and that I had God the whole time.
Anyways - here I am, married to the most amazing, wonderful, sweetest, most loving man in the world, living amongst people that love me and care about me, about to have a baby that is going to grow to be an amazing man of God and do so much for Him!
I really thank God I didnt follow the ways of the world :)
I appreciate him for not letting me go :D
- Mood:
refreshed
soooooooooo tired especially after last night, i slept so little that I woke up with a headache....... *2 more months just 2 more month* and the second greatest joyful moment in my life will arrive :D
Was meant to go see Bride Wars with some of the girls today but it didnt work out LOL!
Elaine had no money - I had woke up with a headache and yaaa so we cancelled :(
next time hahaha
Ok time for an apple!
bye!
- Mood:
blah
It was just Christmas [what seemed like yesterday] and now CNY has passed us by.
We are going to be in out new church building in 1 months time and from there the year is going to keep rolling hahaha!
It is scary cos' I am already planning for youth camp and stuff hahaha so it shows that we have like no time - time passes so fast and how many souls have we actually saved?
Before we know it, we graduate from school, go to Uni, get a job, get married, start a family and die... what have we actually accomplished? are we accomplishing anything? Are we just allowing life to pass us by?
Our lives are gifts from God - they are something that he wants us to live and use for his purpose.
We are meant to be doing more with our lives than we are... but what are we doing?
Is it enough?
Are we satisfied?
If we are, are we rightfully satisified?
Or are we just wasting his creation? ourselves?
I think we need to take off our rose colored glasses and take a look at the world as it really is - take a look at our role in the world and stop living for ourselves - start living for God.
It's not our friends, our popularity statues or anything else that gets us to heaven but a relationship with Him.
We need to be doing more... why cant people just catch that and do something about it?
Selfishness....
- Mood:
thoughtful
Although I look half dead in the picture above it was so nice to catch up with my extended family :D I do love CNY... even though it costs us a bomb hahaha
Just being around family - being close and playing with all my cute cousins :D
Next year I will have the cute one hahaha
Well tomorrow is the last day for visitations for us.
Oh ya and did you know this year is my year? I was born in the year of the Ox hehe :D
Ok take care all :) Enjoy your CNY and collecting your angbow's :)
- Mood:
tired
but the good thing is R will be around next CNY and we will be able to collect for him hahaha :)
It doesn't seem real that I am having a baby hahaha like I know it's there and I feel him move around and stuff but the actual fact that in less than 2 months I will be holding him in my arms doesnt seem real.
Ok well last night went and visitied Uncle Loy and Auntie Sally for dinner
This afternoon will be visiting Auntie Choo Lian
Tonight will be visiting Joses daddy's side
Tomorrow noon - Auntie Kwai Ying and Uncle Steve
Tomorrow late noon - leaders get together
and then......... next Sunday, Joses' mummy's side
hahaha ooooooooo CNY!
- Mood: thoughtful
Well I am super excited!
I am 8 months pregnant today! which means that I only have roughly 2 months before my baby boy enters the world and brings another joy into mine and J's life!
It's so awesome the way God created the human body - going through pregnancy makes me wonder how some people can believe in evolution! God has created the human body so perfectly and the way a womans body transforms to carry a child and even to give birth to a child... how can someone say that the human form was not created by God?
Just watching my body change to cater to the child inside of me is enough for me to know that there def is a creator!
This month is so exciting though! I went to the gyne and we were able to say R open his eyes and mouth! It was so amazing!
Ok anyways... this is my first post in life journal... still working it out, but ya I was just sick of people spamming my blogger LOL so here I am - a place where it's safer [apparently]
Take Care all :D
And remember: Greater is He that lives in you, than he that is in the world!
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accomplished
